redreveller: (red.)
2012-04-24 04:41 pm
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night is cold.

Angsting over my yet undelivered parcel. Omg I will be absolutely heartbroken if it's lost. It's been 19 days since the seller mailed it out (yes, I've been counting) and, still nothing. The standard delivery period for international shipping  - or so I've been told - is 6-8 working days, so yeah, really worried right now. All of the things I've ordered from overseas prior to this have arrived safely  - so I'm just hoping it's a delay at customs. Fingers crossed. I want my ME3, gosh it's been like one month since the game release, and I paid a lot for that package and other things. 

The future's - - it's not what I expected, but it's not completely bleak, either. The choices are there, but they aren't exactly what I want. Still, there's no way to move but forward, and I guess I'll just wait and see and count my options for now. I'm concentrating on getting over these things, one by one, day by day, until I reach a point where I can look back at laugh at myself. 

Yeah angsty post is angsty. WHERE IS MY PARCEL DAMMIT. SO I CAN FINALLY BREATHE EASY KNOWING THAT MY MONEY DIDN'T JUST GO DOWN THE DRAIN ALONG WITH MY MISSING PARCEL. 

It's kind of ironic that DW's preset mood for this post (unless I fiddled with it earlier and forgot that I did) is 'calm' because I most decidedly am not. aomc[a,ca[pc,a[c,cjnc please please please get here soon parcel, omg I need you in my life. LIKE OXYGEN OKAY. 
redreveller: (red.)
2012-02-25 12:13 pm

'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me

qkdnas;kmc;kamc ahhhh applications are stressful. Especially when they ask for you to fill in "Notable Achievements" and then you realise belatedly that, aaargh, you don't really have any. Then follows several prolonged nerve-wracking moments of riffling through your memories and various dust-shrouded certificates, and possibly some prodigious tearing at my hair along the harried way

Truth be told, I don't exactly have very high hopes of getting in. I'm just applying for the experience, and because I'll never forgive myself for not trying. It's not so much applying for the sake of "nothing ventured, nothing gained", but rather taking a leap of faith, and taking what comes with it - - both the good and the bad. 

Research for ori-fic is going along nicely, but I'm going to have a lot less time for that starting this time next week *bites fingernails nervously* because, because, RESULTS. I have .... mixed feelings on that. Pretty much ambivalent 75% of the time, but that's not really counting the remaining 25% which inevitably takes place at night and where the doubts nag at me so, so, very much. :((( Fingers crossed. 

Anyway. Have some brooding! Fassy from good ol' Tumblr, the balm for the beleaguered soul